Wth

My Mom had surgery today and I didn't know it. It's no fault but my own for not talking to her enough. I am over my head in school and home things. I'm fucking mad. I really should have moved there instead. I hate my hometown but having family is great. I came here for family but haven't had what I need since I came. It's few and far between. I get help when it works for the help. Not when I really could use it. I can't ask for help because that would be played against me in some way or form. I just know it.