10lbs

That's right. 10lbs down. This is life changing for this heifer. I need the weight off for me. It makes such a difference to lose a big of weight. I'm planning in making it 5 times that. Yes. 50 L Bs. It's gotta go. I'm going to be hot like I was in the Army. People are already blown away by my beauty and intellect....may as well be the whole package. Haha! It's tax time and the military community is a buzz with what is gonna get bought or paid. I was in fear that we would suffer the wrath of uncle sams greedy hand this year. I was wrong. My theory is this. We will be receiving a return because we have kids. Everyone knows that kids are expensive. Beyond belief. Kid is a crappy situation kid..ssss...is shitty. It goes for bad to worse. The little leaches take, take, take. Really though, mine are awesome. They do cute redeeming stuff regularly to keep me from wanting to ship them off. I love them but sometimes I wonder what life would be like today without children in my life. I'd be on a yacht, sipping a tropical drink, in a bikini...because I'm hot. That's how it would be. Sigh.

Lost 8lbs

I will be starting my second part of the diet tomorrow. I get to add some carbs (by some I mean enough to tease me) and fruits. I will be working out and hopefully tone up some of this jelly. Dieting has came pretty easy if I'm not out. I'm used to going to lunch wherever and having whatever. It's been a better thing for the kids too. They like veggies and fruits of that's all I'll give them. Gizmo was born a vegetarian. Smarty is a meat eating republican. Seriously. The kid is my polar opposite. He makes me think all of Whatever's texan was put into that kid. I bet I win on this though. I give incentives that he can't resist. He will give in. Muwahahaha! Anyway, some weight off, more to go. Yay!

Not happy.

I'm just not happy lately. It's the days that seem to never end and being alone. I'm not a fan of deployments but it had to be done to give us financial security. I worry about what will be next. Will we be able to find jobs in the area? Do we have to move states to make it? Uncertainty is horrible. Smarty is in school. He doesn't take well to change. Even if we move a city away that would rock his world. I hope to get school finished in the next two years and have a path. Right now I'm majoring in college. I just take classes. My associates is done with exception to math and science. I will transfer to a university eventually and get my act together. Whatever is hard to talk to. He works all freakin day and is not a big talker anyway. Hopefully my BAMFcation will make me feel better.

6lbs down

I could be saying more but I am a weak little girl. I totally cheated on my diet for Smarty's basketball games. Damn you McDonalds and your genius marketing. I will keep doing well. I just had a setback that made a difference in making me want to not suck at dieting more. I can't wait to start working out. That is when the real results will come. Having family here makes my head want to spin so I'm doing good considering the piggies in the kitchen chomping on snacks every 10-20 minutes. I am snacking on veggies and hope to lose 4lbs so I can move to my next step in the program.

Weightloss

I lost 2lbs in two days already! Woohoo! I feel it. It's weird how something so small can make a difference. I'm happy to be able to do just diet changes and see results...after the first 5-10lbs I'll be working out regularly and changing my diet a bit. I'm stoked to get toned up!

Diet, day 1

210 lbs....I need this shit gone!

Bitches

Women are bitches. Plain truth. They love nothing but to be surrounded in the drama. I'm not a normal woman I guess. That's why I have always hung out with guys too. I'm not a fan of two faced, fake people. it's crazy. The smaller the town the bigger the gossip. I assumed I could meet at least a handful of people here that aren't complete trash talkers...I was dead wrong. I have more motivation to move out of this god forsaken place than ever before. Bitches.

To my Trenton friend:

Trenton is one hell of a place. Mostly like hell. It sucks. Bad. I do however have a friend I must say that is awesome. She is not like the other snotty women I am used to not wanting associate with. I love that I can have an adult conversation and be me with her! It's hard to find a good friend that has kids and understands I'm not a complete nutcase. Thank you! I hope that we remain friends even after we both leave this horrid place ;)

Family

When my mom and sister come to visit I'm happy....for a day or two. My sister is a 12 year old pain in my ass. I would beat my kids if they acted 1% like her. She has enough tude to share with all of this small town area and still need to be slapped in the mouth. I don't do kids bossing parents and sassing all day. It seems like its too late to retrain her to be a valuable member to society. I don't understand how I had the same parents a turned out so awesome.

I just get mad.

I was in a chipper mood. One kid in bed, one kid away at the in-laws...then I saw it. Something that pissed me off. All it takes. One thing to heighten my pissed off levels to no return. Argh! I want to punch someone...or puke. It literally makes me sick when I'm angry and can't fix it. I like to think I can control some things in my life but I know not all is under my control.