Headache from hell

Smarty got the migraine gene from his fraternal side. Whatever has them and it makes me feel bad but also wonder what he is not doing right to be getting them. I am not sympathetic to people who are sick from something that has “triggers”. I have never read that a healthy diet and being happy give them. So, maybe do those things to feel better? Smarty spent the night at the grandparents place last night so I bet he ate crap to his hearts content and was playing video games and watching TV the whole time. Sounds like a good recipe for a brain to act all painfully angry. Ta-da! I should sell my genius. My migraine free genius. I eat a very well balanced diet and stay half ass in shape. I am a total stress case, but I can also reason with myself as to why. I can count on my fingers the amount of times I have had a headache in my life. Most were from when I was pregnant with Smarty. Wait a second….. I bet he was giving the migraine vibes then too. Little jerk. It all makes sense now. I didn’t have a head problem with Gizmo. He is captain careless. He is going to be a very healthy dude. He is not quite two yet and has shown no sign of giving a shit what anyone thinks of his shenanigans. I have about sixteen years of this crap left. FML.

Macs are awesome.

I have seamlessly transferred all my music from one iSomething to another. Ahhhh...I'm in love. Macs are for simpletons with a need to organize. I am that. Now to install all the stupid Windows programs on my iMac and I'm able to do more school stuff at home. Good stuff.

WTF?

My kids have lost it. Gizmo is crying, without a break, since he got home. Smarty is being a jerk to the crybaby and I just want a nap! For the love of all things good and pure. I should have been a lesbian. Why did I think kids were a good idea?

Cool people

This place has cool people. They do exist! I have met some of the smartest, friendliest, just GREAT people here lately. Most are at school or in the city my school is in but I am willing to travel for friendship. The military was full of people to love or hate. It was easy to get to know new people because new people constantly were being brought to me. I met a guy today at the car detailer that was awesome to talk to. School, military, family...all that jazz. I guess I'm a bit old fashioned when it comes to siting in a waiting room. I hate to see all waiters on phones just googling and texting away. I like to be engaged by real flesh and blood people. That's what is wrong socially today. No one is social. Facebook is not what I'm talking about when I say social. I love when a little old lady tells me about how she is at Walmart for new lotion because the other one she bought was too smelly. Really. It makes me smile to know I may have made her day by listening. Get out and enjoy other people's company. It's good for you. Especially if it's a stranger. You might learn something.

I need to stop being funny?

I guess I am not as funny as I like to think. I am just covering the fact that I am way to hard on myself with humor. I was told this today by my ECON teacher today. I guess I make too many jokes in that class. I would fix my issue but therapy costs too much. I guess when I made a joke about Zoloft I was pushing it. She used that as an example. I don’t like to be judged. At all. Especially when it’s right. I am hard on myself! I have to raise children, get good grades to better my future, keep my husband in love with me and seem happy to do all this? That is asking too much. I need to do all these things with a way to release my feelings on things. Humor. It is all I know. I could be a thief, a liar, a complete loss to society. I am a kidder. I tease, joke, make laughs. So sue me.

How The Edge Stole Xmas

HOLY SHIT I AM SO THERE!

How The Edge Stole Xmas: 102.1 the Edge - Alternative rock for Dallas and Fort Worth. Listen online and on your phone.. put it on vibrate and feel the Edge.

Respect

Give it, get it.

Commuters. A race to get to hell.

I am positive that since I have moved to an area where I must drive long distances to reach civilized life I have taken years off of my life. I fear blood pressure results. I am a angry asshole. Just like 92% of all the other idiots that live in the middle of nowhere like me. Paying way too much for gas a week and my nerves may be worth moving to a city with a Wal-Mart (because Wal-Marts are the one true sign of civilized cities). I need to figure out which Sirius station is a calm channel. I seriously find myself daydreaming of hitting people in my commuter car, the KIA Forte (bad idea). Here in TX (so called courteous driving state (ha!) yield signs are invisible to oversized SUVs and stop signs are actually yields if you are in the mood too? Just my perception. I hate that about 4 hours of my week is in the hands of careless and clueless jerks. I am guilty if speeding here and there but I do follow all the rules of the road otherwise. Including, not being a dumb-ass.

Piss.

Gross. Piss everywhere. Having boys made me assume that they would be a bit dirty and they could care less but the piss has got to stop. I can't sit on a toilet without getting soaked. Whatever usually is good about not marking his spot. Until, Smarty started using indoor plumbing...then Whatever regressed. He gets sloppy here and there. Smarty is a "backboard pisser". He uses the toilet seat to get it to splash a 12 inch radius around and on the toilet. This makes me crazy (and sick.) Gizmo pees on everything too. In my white trash home we allow him to roam in diaper freedom at least an hour a day, if I can help it....this leads to a lot of confusion. How do I know he or the dog peed on the floor. Usually I know if Gizmo did it because he is a finger paint artist and he has to touch and spread all things wetish. I have seen the virgin mary in piss drawings a few times this week alone. A dog simply will piss and move on. I wish we would have had puppies. Life would have been a lot easier.

ugh…just ugh

School is bull. Really. It is. I get payed to go. If I didn’t, I wouldn’t be skipping my big ass to the car every morning I have a class. I have so much going on it makes me crazy. The kind of crazy my pills couldn’t possibly assist. I have forgot to do two assignments now. My GPA should look like major crap by December. I have quit using Fb so I can get some time back to my studying and to stop neglecting my children….a little. We all know they need a little neglecting to grow into irresponsible adults.